As I was at church this sunday morning waiting for my grandparents to show up, the women next to me started talking to me. We spoke of my trip to Spain for WYD 2011. Then we started talking about praying the rosary, our church has a night dedicated to praying it as a community. I honestly think its a sign from God, bc I’ve had this urge to go for the past 3 weeks, but I never go. I guess its bc I get kind of emotional when I pray the rosary. Idk if im ready to be a cry baby in public… I think I just might go this week.

Well its 5am, and I can’t go back to sleep. Best thing thats happened so far was waking up to a message from my I nfantry Man. :) I’ve been blessed that the past two days I was able to talk…well message him. I’m scared every second of the day for him. But I also have to put it in Gods hands. I know the Lord will watch over him and protect him… I’m more than 100% sure he’s sugar coating everything he’s telling me about the time he’s spent there. I guess my monster loves me too much, to tell me whats really going on. He’s told me while in the midst of IM’ing that they were being attacked. I kills me to know I can’t keep him here safe. But thats the man I fell in love with when I was 16. He was my hero then and he will remain my hero untilforever and day is gone.

As i mark off one more holiday that i’ve spent alone since my monster aka my soldier is away from home. The only way to keep going is by reassuring myself that the more holidays I cross off the sooner he’ll be home. Im lonely at time but I know the feeling I have is nothing compared to how alone he must feel. He only has his men. At least here at home I have family. I could never imagine how he must feel sometimes. Because I have no idea how he does what he does and still manges to stay strong for the both of us. I thank God everyday for placing him in my life. God has a plan for me that involves him and I know God will make things great. I have no idea what i’d do without the man of my dreams/my one & only true love/ my knight n not so shiny armour…He’s a one of a kind very hard to find man. Im so very greatful to have be in his life. - <3 B

Looking up military stuff gets me anxious….so many wonderful things to choose from! I have fallen in love with “Nametape bracelets” :) I want to order like 100 of them. So I can show how proud I am of my Infantry man! Until later <3 B